left! left! LEFT! / Thursday, August 21, 2008
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alright. well here's a quickie. right now, at this very moment i'm volunteering at mercy except that i'm not really doing much right now. hah. bad. well. marching band started! amazing! :D
had a short chat with skeff yesterday and i dont get why matt lagarde asked if i watched lost, because i'm lost at what he asked. did i look lost last night? not really.. except i keep forgetting to go further at set 8..
he didnt even explain how that show was related to marching band..
well. the thing i dont like about marching band is that i cant plan when i can play le tennis! c'est tres triste. je veux le jouer beaucoup!!
its pretty sad that i havent been able to bring myself to writ anything much for so long. i used to blog everyday and now its like.. well, its not that i dont have much to say.
you know what i realized though?
taking mr snow's class last year, yeah sure it helped me with rhectorical analysis, but it made me feel WORSE about writing. it demoralized and made me unsure of my writing abilities. which TOTALLY affected me when the SATs came along and then that ap exam. i swear, i began the year all excited that i could write/type everyday.
it totally made me feel like i knew no way to express myself through words which is not entirely true. yes, i may not be the best writer, but i think i most certainly can express myself through words pretty well. but that class created such insecurity that on the day of my sats, that essay, I FREAKED OUT. PANIC!
it was not good at all and i ended up with a low essay score. my mcq's were alright, but my essay brought down my grade.
i think my faith in God, in the Lord and Jesus and has grown in the past months and year. especially since i returned to first baptist. and its good to see the hasbroucks and andreason's and glenn and molly again. and its great to meet the webbers and all the youth leaders. sadly jon priddy is leaving in less than a week and the last time i can see him at youth group just so happens to be the last day of band camp!
i kinda want to skip that bbq to go to the youth group bbq. but what will that say about my team workmanship to work with the band? hopefully we can hang out at the andreason's after they get back from youth group and i from band. and maybe before camp too!
but back to trusting the Lord. i think this time, when i retake the SATs, i will have more trust in him that all will be fine and there will be no barriers. (:
that's what's going to break that darn diamond wall.oh and my brother has gone of for charlottesville! UVA! whoo! whoo! haha
i must go now.
cheerio!
/Hopped!
8:12 AM
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