Summer Plans / Saturday, April 23, 2011
today i slept in till one in the afternoon! and got up cuz i felt like it was time to get some work done! but... i failed. once i got up and sat infront of the computer, i longer felt like it was the time to work, but i knew it was time to get down to business! sadly my heart did not listen to my mind.
before i knew it, evening came and i met up with marie and cherie to go to Essex Alliance Church's annual Easter service at the gymnasium. there were so many people and huge choir! well that was all expected, because it was my second time. still, it's A LOT of people! i don't know if i would ever feel connected to such a large church...
This summer, i'm not doing anything super serious. Depending on the apartment that my mom will have when i go back to maine, i plan to work on the following projects:
1. Animated shorts
2. Cooking
3. Leisurely reading
Going to bed. Good night!
/Hopped!
10:33 PM
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distracted from my #1 priority to complete my lab report / Saturday, April 16, 2011
my mom recently called me and told me that i should never give up my hope of being a doctor because of feelings of incompetence. but i don't think she knows that's the reason why i've been thinking about alternatives to medschool. that exact reason. i feel incompetent of becoming a doctor. i feel incompetent of being a scientist. but i enjoy pondering about the wonders of life and it's not just that general awe and wonder of the creation of the world and how it functions, but also how on a micro level, how receptors work. what are the purposes of different genes? - i'm actually excited for bcor 101 genetics, next semester cuz someone told me that the discussion lab section is to do presentations on such. i hope it's going to be as awesome as it sounds!
and there are so many dreams i wish to acheive in this lifetime, but i often feel incompetent. i then realized that any source of my incompetence is laziness. too lazy to put in effort to discover, with the process. too lazy to read articles related to this lab i'm working on and so i remain intimidated of this assignment.
laziness is a terrible sin. but passion will eliminate laziness. ;)
i should return to my lab report. GOOD NIGHT!
/Hopped!
2:25 AM
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college crisis! / Saturday, April 09, 2011
AHH! i don't know what to do post college. lately i've been thinking about going into film and ANIMATION and creating short films inspired by true stories. should i? i have no idea. shall i completely change off a science track and go into the arts??? i don't know. am i wasting my time with neuroscience? NO, i'm not. but it's like i'm throwing my gpa away. i don't want to care about my gpa anymore. it doesn't make me happy thinking about it all the time. never makes anyone happy i think.
i want to do something, something BIG, but i get scared. if i'm ab
le to get over it, i'm meant to do something... i want to create stories. should i go into journalism? sociology?
today was beautiful! i went downtown to the lake with natali
e to feed ducks! and we ended up feeding a ton of seagulls... -.- but we also managed to find a couple ducks!
/Hopped!
9:33 PM
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