/ Sunday, February 13, 2011
writing... I haven't written personal reflections in a long time and the RA class I'm taking atm is resparking that interest into me. we have to write weekly reflections for a identity exercise. I broke with my boyfriend of 4 months and it was very painful. We met last year, but our story is not what i wanted to talk about...
Memory. It's hard to forget our memories. every night before going to bed, I would miss his company. Then God will come to me and I feel some guilt, because in truth, God has always loved me even though I took my heart away from him for awhile. No matter what he'll always be there, to be my hero - like enrique to his loyal fans.. :P
we were close and bonded quick. somehow I just never was able to accept him for who he was. I still loved him, but I guess not deep enough. I put a lot into it in the beginning but I guess I grew tired in the end.. and eventually we were both tired of providing for each other..
not what i was expecting to blog about but oh well..
i want to talk about memory. and it's power. i look back at mine and i keep thinking about him. i look forward and i feel stress from all the work piling up cuz i keep looking back. Look forward and i will forget him, except for the eventually desire to miss him. No... i do not want to entertain such thoughts... i can't. move on. must move on.
but memory is a powerful thing. i'm recalling all the procedures i did for my neuroscience lab atm cuz i'm pushing through a lab report i've totally been procrastinating, due to fear. what do i fear of it? i don't know... incomplete work? hah. tackle by doing it. ;)
au revoir!
/Hopped!
4:12 AM
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