on a more serious note, not like failing is a serious thing. it is. but.. hmm. how do i say this. (this was written minutes after i wrote my previous post. in case this isn't making sense.)
you know that vulnerable feeling you get when you let your guard down and you let everything out. well. i haven't really been doing that here. all the things here are true, but it's been a long time since i've wrote something deep. and i'm starting to find that i might be losing it. i don't know if that makes any sense. it's not even the feeling of something deep i'm talking about. it's like the feeling of.. just letting the world in. but basically, everything i say here, for the most part has been.. just things of the surface.
and it has a good purpose. mine.. has no purpose. just sharing my life.. on just the surface. well, i guess this blog first started to share what i've been up to. and i started blogging because... i wanted to be like that famous singaporean blogger. what's her name? xin something. i wanted to get popular enough to get sponsors and get free stuff!
i was young. and i still am.
this blog's new focus: discovering my place in this world. i've always believed that i have a focus for my life. but i'm starting to lose it. i don't know if i really had one to begin with. but that's what the new focus is.
