resolutions / Friday, January 08, 2010
i realized a little after new years that i never made a resolution for this year. in fact i haven't been making one for the past two years. maybe that's where i've been failing...
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ok, i just got freaked out by a random person knocking on my window! it was just someone who got locked out.. at yes, 7 in the morning. and i my heart is racing now. ok. breathe. it's all ok. i thought some ghost or demon was crackling at my window. because it feels more like night than morning since i didn't sleep last night. it's not the lack of sleep, but rather my biological clock is a little screwed up, with some help from my brother.
i shouldn't blame him though. it all started because one night i decided to stay up a few hours later to beat the pool game on miniclips. and a battle within myself ensued in the following days. and now.. here i am. up at 7.30 am with no sleep since 5 pm yesterday. it's all pretty excellent i have to say. although all this typing is tiring my brain out. but i had to type. i got back from corinna's 2 hours ago and went to bed. only to find that my mind was racing with all these thoughts and plans. i need to call the financial aid office, email my advisor, write my smdep essays, schedule my summers, eventually call uvm rescue for observation. and.... what i should write for smdep. if i didn't already mention it.
well i guess it started from what i should say to my advisor. i was going to tell her about my plans for the summer. or ask if it's a good plan to do summer school this summer, then smdep next summer and research (& mcat prep) the summer after that. i would then further explain how feel that she might want to get to know me better over the course of the year to write me a sincere recommendation and not just for the heck of the nice.
i also feel this way for my chem professor who has no idea i plan to ask him for him, or knows anything much about me, except for seeing me once at work. and seeing him a few times during his office hours.
oh and then.. i thought of what i'm going to write about in my essay and of how interacting with my brother and his friends, especially corinna, has rejuvenated my curiosity. sorta. well, i'm reminded of my need to be curious. a good kind of curiosity though. not the kind that killed the cat. you know what i mean? like einstein. and have the imagination to spark the curiosity.
oh and that's my new year's resolution. then this will lead to being more hardworking and understanding what i'm learning better and actually putting thought and care into my work. i pretty much slacked a lot last semester. hanging out, watching junk and stuff.. that were really awesome stuff, but all in all, i got distracted. not good. not good at all.
oh and i need to email my ex french prof about persepolis. oh and hah. i need to remind my bro to return his borrowed dvd's to clemon's. DOOD. why am i not in uva? it's freakin' awesome. but i also love uvm. ahhh!! i'm at uvm.. well.. the courses sound so much more interesting at uva. or maybe it's because i'm only taking the elementary courses as a first year..
so fustrating!
well. better get some rest. because we're meeting corinna in about 4 hours.. yepp. need to go to the bank too!
good night. you know what i mean. right?
/Hopped!
7:23 AM
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