Wow. this is cool. a new interface for blogger!
So i've been using tumblr for the past semester. Google, do you want me to come back? because this is tempting......
today i woke up at 9.30 am and chilled in the living room watching the news. went online and found out that kim jong il died. and also discovered a cute little tumblr.
then i went back to bed. woke up at 2.30 because my momma said that she was picking me up at 3.30.
i also tried on the socks cherie gave me for secret santa:
and made dinosaur nuggets and tea!
/Hopped! 8:20 PM
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sunday - christmas break day 2 /
i woke up at 9.40 am and brushed my teeth. marie asked me if i wanted eggs with anything else. i was like whatever you want to make. so she made me eggs with toast and a bowl of blueberries.
10.00 - decided that we had to fly to the mega bus stop outside of royal tyler theatre by leaving at 10.20. cherie and i engulfed our eggs and packed the car with church goodies (cookies & 20somethinglunch) and our bags!
off at the bus stop, marie gave each of us a christmas gift! a hug good bye, we wished her merry christmas. on the bus we sat with kiki and sanyeong. cherie and i watched flower boy ramen shop! and then we all fell asleep. and woke up in BOSTON!
/Hopped! 7:49 PM
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cookie fest! /
Hello!! Saturday was my first day of break. I woke up late at 8.44AM for Staff Breakfast and Mia told me that everyone was waiting to eat. Sorry!!! I feel so bad for that. I even had two alarms set for 7AM. why didn't i wake up?? >.< After eating breakfast we all checked our assigned floors. this time was better (waited for only 10 min after they're supposed to check out) than thanksgiving break's when we waited for like an hour after the late stayers were supposed to check out. after all the residents were our of MAT, it was time for me to pack!! and then marie came to pick up cherie and i. We made turkey sandwiches at her house and spent the rest of the day making cookies!!!
Today is the last day of classes!! This week has been quite wonderful, in the sense that I have been going to all my classes and not feeling a bit sleepy in any of them! WONDERFUL! (:
I'm also going to stop moping about an old friend here. No more. This is the last day. I made him a christmas card today. In his favourite colour. I hope that he enjoys reading as much as I enjoyed making it. I don't want to expect anything from it though. or else, i'll just end up super sad.
Yep, made a card instead of doing my assignments.
Today might be the last day of the semester that i go to pub quiz too! SensASIANS! and Good-eye-might! and other cool names that we've had. WE GOT TO WIN THIS ONE!
NBR tonight and free food. let the frenzy begin!
cheerio!
/Hopped! 4:25 PM
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a sad heart / Sunday, December 04, 2011
If I can't forget you, are you meant to forget me?
/Hopped! 11:49 PM
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talking to the moon / Monday, October 17, 2011
happy birthday
but you should listen to something more upbeat (even though idk if you ever liked katy perry.. probs not)
/Hopped! 3:06 AM
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the imaginary monologue that i'll probably never have with... / Thursday, September 22, 2011
to whom this concerns,
i understand your actions. but no matter what it still hurts. so much that i want to forget you. especially because you don't talk anymore. what's the point in keeping you in my heart, in anyway, even as a brother in christ? no. it hurts too much. but i don't know how to forget you. i can't just forget things. i can only keep trying. because i understand your reasons for why all this has happened, if you were to be interested in someone else in the near future (like within 2 years), i would feel very betrayed. but i don't know if you're aware of that, because we no longer speak to each other.
/Hopped! 3:49 AM
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what makes a good leader? /
i always hate being ask this question during "training" events, like for the RA training and the alana orgs training. cuz it's such a repeated qns and there are so many things that make up a good leader. from balancing time, planning well to building relations. the thing that i'm struggling with wanting to be that good leader is on the relations aspect. because i realize that i can be picky with what kinds are personalities i enjoy spending time with, but as a leader, as an RA, as a member of AASU's eboard, i want to sincerely welcome the people i network with.
i finally realize what it means when people express themselves differently around different groups of friends, like you have your close friends, school friends, colleagues and so on. because the earliest reflection that i have on this thought was from youth group, my junior/senior year of high school. we talked about how we treat different groups of friends differently, cuz we relate to them in different manners and have different levels of bonding. but i didn't really get it because i treated my church friends in the same way i treated my school friends and i didnt have a job to think about how i related to colleagues.
even after getting my first job in the lab, i didn't think about my relations with people in terms of bonding levels. but now as an RA i do. because now i'm surrounded by all sorts of people and i have a duty to build a community where ever i am. and at aasu, i have the responsibility too. i've met all sorts of personalities and at times i've felt like, "if it weren't for being an RA, i don't think that i would ever spend time with this person." i know that it's a very closed mindset, but at the same time some personalities just brush you the wrong way. it's like a tug of war between my ethics and desires. perhaps i'm just being lazy in putting effort to make a friendships with the personalities i'm not used to. but it feels so hard. like writing a paper.
which reminds me. i need to write to my little cousins!
but the thing that i find unethical about my thoughts is that i sometimes feel obliged to be friends with people i would only keep as maybe aquaintances, and when i make friends, i want to be sincere about it. and obligations aren't always sincere. it also seems wrong to not give someone the chance to be friends, but what if you just can't talk to that person at all? well i haven't felt this way, but i'm just imagining myself being put in this situation.
like how do you make someone feel welcome at an event when you don't welcome them in your hearts. oh well, maybe i have been put in this situation. cuz right after bad break ups with someone, you don't want to see them, but you see them around anyway. you don't want to be rude and act cordial when you really don't want to. (yeah, i am talking about myself)
anyway, i have to study for my exam in 11 hours! >.<
