tell me more / Tuesday, November 25, 2008
i sit here on this chair completely lost in thought.
oh man. what happened to those days when i loved doing this? when i couldn't live without all this. everything seems so far away and i hate this feeling of depression. i really wish for it to all go away. i really wish i was that "perfect girl, in the perfect neighbour hood".. haha. ally's video was hilarious.
i'm so tired. and exhausted. mentally. i'm physically fine. but my mind seems to have a turn for the worse. it wants to die?? no! i refuse.
i had a pretty exciting weekend. you wanna know what happened? well, on friday, i almost died. i hanged out with ally, angela, jon and shelby and we rented young frankenstein and watched it in the cold, empty church, in the dark. and then we watched some bunny animated films that were 30 second clips of real films, like star wars, pirates, bond, raiders of the lost ark, snakes on the plane and many more! whoo! when we were finally tired of freezing our buts off, we decided to go to get some food!.. at wendy's! since they sell chili!.. which none of us ended up getting. but anyway, we order our food and sit down to enjoy our meal and laughter together.
before you know, jon does something so hilarious, well not very actually, that i start laughing as i eat a chicken nugget, which ends up falling down my wind pipe and i'm left gasping for air "i cant breathe!"
so i almost died that day, if jon had not done the heimlich manuever, which was embarrassing. oh man. and then the five of us sat there in awkwardly intense silence.. when rachel madore called!
sunday was pretty exciting too! there was the marching band banquet! and i probably spent three hours on some vegetable dish that no one ended up eatting.. because i dont know. i also dont know whether or not anyone eat it, but let's just assume no one did.
anyway, there was alot of mac and cheese and pasta and such. and whoo! i love banquets! its like free food! and whoo! awards!.. even though i just got a senior plaque! but heck! i'm a senior! whoo! college applications! and essays that i freaking owe mr furbush!
i'm going to die in that class. and that class is going to kill my gpa. and colleges are all probably going to reject me..
you see! this is what i mean. where did everything all go? i used to be so optimistic. and now i'm sitting here in dismay and weariness.
my precious mind is melting away before my very eyes and should be able to do something about it, but i cant seem to budge. what evil is holding such a tight grip on me. let me go!
i pretty much suck at cite reading. hah. i knew that long ago.
i'm sorry for such an emo post. i told myself i would never be so and here i am.
on some other news...
today, a half day, the school experienced a fantastic time of chaos, the wonderful gift of blackouts and flickering lights and computers. whoo!
i was in calc and meg spotted some blue flash off in the distance and flicker went the lights and before you know it, it was all darkness, except for some light that shown through the clouds and the windows.
the school ended up letting us out an hour earlier than the not so average half day and joy spread throughout the halls! and i went over to allys because i left my house key at home. and we created a short animated film!.. in one and a half hours! whoo!
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=41033086005
cheerio!
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