oh man. i miss meteorgarden. probably the best idol drama i've ever seen. very cliche but so good and cheesy. fromagey :D
its like eatting mac&cheese.
dood. i need to get rid of all these distractions and get down to writing my english essay. i dont know what to do. i know what to say actually.
where did all my determination go?? its like it suddenly left me. i dont know. i cant explain it. maybe i've been giving into my desire to just lay in bed all day, for too long.
ok. enough of dao ming si and off i go to write about a poem about death. whoo!
cheerio!
/Hopped! 10:35 PM
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i want to spontaneously combust / Tuesday, January 13, 2009
i really dont know what has been wrong with me lately. i feel so... dead. i totally blew off gwu last week and dont know why and i have so many things i need to do. its too overwhelming. i dont even know where to begin. i really need to prioritize.
okay. so. i dont know what i'm getting in ap lit and calc.. and eughh. i've always put ap physics first. anyway. here's a list of things i need to do:
- app fee waiver forms -smith college and northeastern app -ap lit essay -homework as of right now: marine bio key thing, calc, physics, chem lab report -practice for pit band.
want to see what i have to do today after school? 2-2.30/3: furb 3-4: usm transcript and whatnot 4.30-6: calc review session.. then home for homework!..
the past week and a half all i have been doing in sitting around. staring at this screen as music blasts into my ears. if not that, then i'm staring at some other much larger screen where i eat some soup and watch pride&prejudice or the devil wears prada or something. ._.
ok. back on track.. marine bio. then fake ap calc.
totally wasted 15 minutes here. ugh. why? so fustrating. but i had to. %@#&*!
after 48 hours, i am exhausted, sad and tired. i've lost weight.. estimate about 3-5 lbs and probably dont want to ever talk about college applications ever again. not at least till next week when gwu is due
i'm tired and sad. i'm so stupid i want to cry. i've been so blind i really want to do it but i cant my heart cant take it. goodbye chicago
dood! i had such a good essay! and a good supplement main essay too! i just.. i cant do it. i had such a good chance, especially after my brother pushed me into my mind where i wrote such a good essay that can stand out! agh..
maybe.. next year. if i dont like whereever i'm going to. i think i have a good chance to get into bu and northeastern. sigh.
