i hate not being able to choose / Monday, October 26, 2009
i love this song so much.
right now i'm looking things up for my english research paper. i've figured at last, with more concrete ideas of what i'm going to write about.. parallels of the great flood in noah's ark and the one in gilgamesh. yep
okay, that's what i was doing an hour and a half ago. (it's 1.10 am right now). what did i do during that period? i got distracted by searching for SMDEP stuff. i was trying to remember what the program was called and then i was deciding and "ooh"ing and "ah"ing at what college to do it at. UVA vs. Yale vs. UT. the last one is more of because masha's from texas and she would like me to hang out in houston with her at some point.
yea. and 5 minutes ago i got distracted by UVM rescue. i'd like to volunteer. and then get some training. i'm trying to see if it's legit EMT training, because then i can actually work as an EMT, especially over the summer when i have no workstudy for labs. eugh. i like my job. i don't know how much my job/people at my job like me, but i like my job. it's alright you know. it's not the funnest thing ever, but i learn stuff, every so often. like.. how to make gel and i can wean mice! and lotsa other lab stuff. it makes me think of bones, so much, except no crime solving stuff. sad.
i hope people at my work like me (i say naively). i mean, i just hope i'm not a nuisance. today i pretty much screwed up because i ran the gel for too long and the results weren't very good. also, i feel so awkward, socially, in the lab. so.. inexperienced. well duh, i am, but.. sigh. i don't know how to explain it. other than that though, i like my job. i just wish i wasn't so awkward.
ok. i need to spend tthe next 10 minutes looking up for something for my research paper and then GO TO BED. mmhmm.
